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Sunday, July 26th, 2009
7:00 pm	Missed Chances I knew it. I should have been faster. Because of my slow pace, a bright possibility has been replaced by a bleak future. A missed chance has closed down the doors of opportunity. I honestly believed you could be my longshot, but now it seems you're just my impossible. How could things progress now, given the circumstances? Tomorrow will not be a very good day, knowing that your presence will forever depart the place where your perfect smiles made my heart as light as a cloud. I'll definitely miss you. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: The All-American Rejects - It Ends Tonight (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 21st, 2009
7:52 pm	Picking Up The Pieces Just five years ago, I was at the top of my game. I had no problems with identity, and all these things young adults like me are plagued with. I just have one realization right now: I regret every moment that I slacked off before. What a waste. Now I'm 20 years old and not getting any younger. I need a change. Whatever it takes to get better, man. Whatever it takes. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
1:44 am	Nameless You are a Ghost You are a Memory Cherish or Forget It doesn't MATTER You happened A force that brought out both the best and worst A presence that revived and killed me A person that delivered me to fantasy then back to reality It doesn't MATTER You are a Ghost You are a Memory Current Mood: pensive (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 23rd, 2009
12:10 am	Perspective Change I've missed you, LJ. But not enough, apparently. I haven't even written another entry after I promised to write all those interesting topics. Haha. The thing is, right now, although I'm FAB (Fat Alone Broke - HAHA), I seem to be at peace. No sarcasm intended, everyone. With all the stuff going on (or the lack of to be more precise), I feel at ease, and I've been able to think more. I'm not saying the path that I should follow has finally been cleared. I'm still a lost, lost animal. But somehow, I feel better. And better is good. :) I've recently realized how emotional I was before. I am sorry to have spent so much time whining rather than coping. To tell you the truth, things aren't excellent right now. However, I think happiness has suddenly stopped being elusive to me. LIVE THE DREAM. I should always keep that in mind. And I suppose you should too. :) Current Music: Gavin DeGraw - Chariot (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 12th, 2009
12:01 am	Signing In Yes. Jurmane has been out for a while now. You see, a lot of things have happened while I was away. And when a lot of things happen... Well, let's just say sometimes it's hard to write all of them down, or which one of them to write. So I've decided to write about stuff I have realized for quite some time now, but haven't written down yet. They're mostly about love and friendship, and dealing with other people. Here's the list I am hoping to accomplish: Haley and Lucas - So okay, I'm gonna use Haley and Lucas' relationship in One Tree Hill to illustrate a point about a guy and girl being really friends, and what comes with it. Spectrum of Difficulty - At how sometimes, we are drawn towards the hard path. Because of valid reasons, of course. Liking without Boundaries - Ah yes, this topic. Very interesting. :P Rejection Letter - How a rejection e-mail from a company you're applying to can be likened to a rejection from a girl you really like. Yes, there is a similar pattern! The Wall - When faced with a wall, you have several options. Some will doom you, some will leave you stagnant, but some will... maybe make you succeed. Friendship Needs - There are three essential things that lead to friendship. And each one comes after the other. The Truth about Being Emo - This is to give my thoughts on being emo... How it's not really such a bad thing as other people portray it to be. Yes, I will defend it once and for all. Haha. So that's about it for now. I hope I get to develop these ideas soon. I'm excited to get to writing again! No matter how shallow my entries are sometimes. Haha. My friends always say that happiness is more of a choice than a feeling. However, it doesn't matter right now. I feel happy. And I choose to be happy. So I am happy. At pwede ba, huwag na umangal. Kaya ko naman maging masaya. Hahaha. :) See you friends around. :) (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2009
12:23 am	Bakit Ba Ako Pinakapipili? I don't know what to do about this anymore. I care so much that I can't decide. Usually its the mind vs the heart. Now it's just the heart vs. itself. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
1:35 am	Rejection Dearest, Just wanted to share what I got through e-mail tonight. It's from Unilever. "Dear MT2009 Applicant, Thank you for your interest in applying for the Management Trainee Assessment Center (MTAC). Your outstanding academic and leadership performance is impressive and we would like to commend you for your achievements. However, a careful assessment shows that your profile does not match what we are looking for now. Hence, we were unable to advance you to MTAC 2009." I am understanding slowly why you don't want to work. *sigh* I hope you're doing better. :) Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Sunday, January 25th, 2009
12:56 am	Being There For Someone You Love Dearest, This might seem weird, but I've decided to just use this blog to talk to you since I can't seem to figure out how to through any other way. Somehow, at a distance, I can feel you listening anyway, so I'm happy to write whatever thoughts or stories I wanna share with you here. Well... Today, I want to talk to you about a dear friend of mine. And I know she's a dear friend of yours too. I really miss her. And I don't know if I have been a bad friend for not realizing it before as much as I do now. She's going through a very tough time, and I think it's beyond my control to make it better. It's beyond anybody's control. Please help me pray to God for her fast recovery. I know you'll do your best to take care of her, so thank you. :) (Comment on this)
Saturday, January 24th, 2009
11:54 pm	A Moment of Clarity January 20, 2009 Charles was floating. He didn't know how, and he didn't know why. All he knew was that the city shined below him, populated by the gigantic buildings and cars passing by during rush hour. Around him was the black sky, seemingly saying that stars do not exist at all. He could feel the cool air whipping at his face, his clothes struggling against the force of the wind. Most people would be terrified to be Charles right now. Oh, but Charles was definitely not like most people. Somehow, he always imagined this situation... Being high above, being left alone by the indifferent world. He smiled as realized how free he was. For the first time, he did not need to worry about his unreasonable boss breathing down his neck for a job done wrong (which has happened so many times already), or his landlord banging on his apartment door to ask for rent six months late. At this precise moment, he was happy. However, the happiness that flowed through him suddenly stopped. He looked around him. Panic. He was descending the city, faster and faster with every second that passed. Charles screamed and flailed his arms, desperately trying to grasp on to things which aren't really there. It was only at that moment when he realized that all this time, he wasn't floating. He was falling. Down and down he went, with his efforts to stop gravity obviously not doing anything. And then, there was silence... Except for one thing. He couldn't hear anything anymore, anything except the loud beating of his heart. It was like his body had already accepted the inevitable. Just a few seconds now, and the man whom only a handful of people know as Charles would be a simple thud on the ground. Just another failure. His eyes watered, realizing this was the end. He felt sorry for himself. ... Charles' eyes adjusted to the light that was coming from the fuzzy television in his living room. Apparently, he fell asleep on the couch again, with pizza leftovers and soda cups decorating his immediate surroundings. He got up and walked towards the refrigerator, eager to get himself a glass of water. As he drank, as the cold liquid gushed down his throat, he realized that life made some sense after all. Everything made sense. Current Mood: melancholy (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 4th, 2008
2:00 am	So What Am I Thinking About This Finals Week? Elizabeth Banks is so so so beautiful. And a good actress to boot. She's actually making me watch Meet Dave. MEET DAVE (forgetting that I am a movie buff who watches GOOD movies). HAHA. I think I've never had this much crush on a celebrity before. That's right. I'll write more about it next time. Hahaha. :) Shet, what a weird entry. Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 27th, 2008
1:31 am	Fleeting I try to bring it back, but the magic seems to be lost forever. I long for the sweet conversations we had last February. How they seem so long ago. And fleeting. I miss them. (Comment on this)
Saturday, September 20th, 2008
5:48 pm	Song Realization We can find God everywhere. We can even find it in "Everywhere" by Michelle Branch, popularly covered by Yellowcard: "Cause You're everywhere to me, and when I close my eyes it's You I see. You're everything I know that makes me believe... I'm not alone." We can find God everywhere. :) *bow* HAHAHA Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Yellowcard - Everywhere (Comment on this)
Monday, September 8th, 2008
8:52 pm	The Value of Time It's funny how 5 minutes can seem like an eternity. It's even funnier how 5 minutes can make you the happiest you've ever been for a long time. If you look at it the second time around, it's not really funny, actually. Those minutes are what you call blessings. :) Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Snow Patrol - Signal Fire (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
5:18 am	Game On Effecting Much-Needed Change... NOW. Current Music: Paramore - That's What You Get (Comment on this)
Monday, September 1st, 2008
2:38 am	I feel that today is going to be great :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAIA! :) VIVA LA VIDA! :) Current Music: 3 Doors Down - Its Not My Time (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 21st, 2008
2:40 am	On Cramming Academic cramming is not advisable. Not advisable at all. But why do people still do it? Why do I do it? (I'm cramming something right now, obviously.) Well... Aside from total laziness, we cram because we want to make time for other things that matter in life. You delay study to talk to people, go to places, do some weird shit. Whatever. :) We are students, and we are people. This is true. But we should always remember that we will always be more of the latter than the former. Viva La Vida, like the song says. Just don't overdo cramming. It wouldn't be cramming anymore. It would be stupidity. Current Mood: calm (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 16th, 2008
11:28 am	Bruce Wayne! YEESH! :) Which Dark Knight Character Are You? You are Bruce Wayne. You are a very private, although you usually project an image of a carefree, happy and totally friendly person. You know how to play the game and keep people at an arms length, but sometimes you just wish you could scream out your secrets to the world. You are very generous and believe in helping those in need and give more than just money to causes. You have a quiet mournful side that you are only able to share with a few lucky souls, and you can be quite sensitive and moody as well. However, usually you are charming and powerful and have to constantly sweep away all those people falling helplessly at your feet! Find Your Character @ BrainFall.com (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008
2:41 am	Time is of the essence. Mastering the art of not sleeping is not easy. Trust me, I've tried and failed repeatedly. I need more hours in a day. Haha. :) Current Mood: awake Current Music: Young Jeezy - I Put On (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008
2:47 pm	Haha, I knew it. But I wanted SOSS (Stolen from Pat) :) What Ateneo de Manila University "school" fits you best? created with QuizFarm.com You scored as School of Science and Engineering you are fit for SOSE, you are geeky, different and absurd at times, you have your own world, but you don't care because you are happy. you tend to be lazy because of your overconfidence. your brilliance is your crown. School of Science and Engineering 64% School of Social Sciences 57% School of Humanities 43% School of Management 43% (Comment on this)
Sunday, July 6th, 2008
1:02 am	A Bullet to the Head Does The Trick Watching Wanted (James McAvoy, Angelina Jolie, Morgan Freeman) has made me realize two things: 1) That I am finally convinced that Angelina Jolie is smoking and definitely has appeal, something that I wasn't really seeing before. Impossible but true. :) AND 2) That I need a life-changing experience. QUICK. I will post a full blog about the movie when I have the time. :) And man, I have to read Mark Millar's Wanted graphic novel soon. Without the man who also wrote Marvel Comics Civil War (arguably the best comic book idea of the decade), this high-flying movie would not have been possible. Comic book geek heart, let me not forget the urgency of this task! :) Haha. :) Current Mood: awake Current Music: Lil Wayne - Lollipop (14 Comments |Comment on this)